Well, I 'chose' to come in at 8am today. I figured that would be perfect considering I've come in every day this week four hours earlier than the last. (A lot like living in a world with 20hr days) So anyway ... my day goes as expected... doing OCIE upgrades as I knew I would be. I managed to finish up the rest of business office and accounting department before lunch. Not too bad, I thought to myself. After lunch, I was supposed to go to medical records and do more upgrades there, but hold the phone .... Peggy talked to Donnell Systems (the OCIE vendor) while I was at lunch and found out that what I've been doing is COMPLETELY POINTLESS. I won't waste your time explaining why as it isn't really important. If I weren't so tired, I might be pissed off about it. What it boils down to is that I'm going to have to do everything I've already done (and then some) all over again next week. That really sucks, but they made up for it by giving me the next five days off... so I've pretty much been able to chill the rest of the day and I don't have to be back at work until next tuesday when I'll be starting the upgrades for real this time. Hell, cross your fingers, I might even have some help. I just hope I can get Fred, my body shop guy, to fix my bumper before I have to work again. With my luck he'll tell me "Well, if you had been here wednesday, we could have done it, but your next window won't be for another two weeks."

Oh, and last night when I got home, the china cabinet had already been moved. Didn't I say he could do it? The thought of not having to stay up and wait on me to get home (or getting awoke at 11pm) must have been hella motivational.

Just wanted to let everyone know that today has been "let's all step on Glenn's cock" day.

First, I'm just a little more than pissed of at the whole situation at work. Last week, I found out I was going to get taken off my cozy mon-fri day shift in order to give one of the n00bs a little extra training... I think to myself "no problem... I could use the change." The schedule I get starts on sunday working 8pm to 6:30am. Then, after I get off at 6:30 am, I have to be back at 4pm and work until 2:30am tuesday. Then come back at noon the same day and work until 10:30pm... and then finally have three days off before working Saturday night. I've had crazy schedules before, and this one isn't really too bad. At least I SHOULD have had wed through fri off, which would have given me much needed time to be at the shop and get my car finished. Well, I tell Melissa about the schedule and she hates it, because working 10hr shifts every 10hrs doesn't leave much room for me to spend time with her.

So I start out on this hell shift Sunday with my sights set on Tues. night when it would all be over. So, I come in Monday at 4pm, and right when I come in the door, Randy gives me a list of people in the business office who need a certain app to be upgraded. This updrade has to be done by the end of the month. I was aware of this upgrade, and had taken the time to show one of my co-workers, Ross, how to do this amazingly SIMPLE upgrade the previous week. Apparently, when it came time to actually do some work, he ducked out by saying he had two problems doing some the previous week when I showed him how. One of which wasn't even a problem, but rather a minor inconvienence where a folder has to be copied and renamed to match a given path. So, anyway, it's four o'clock on monday, I'm holding a two page list of names, business office closes at five, and I'm supposed to get as many done as I can. wtf?! So I go to business office, and in less than an hour, I was able to get four done. That brings us to today. Today I came in at noon per the f*cked up schedule. When I came in, I found that Kristin, who WASN'T shown how to do the upgrades, had done nine more in the business office. (Apparently, it doesn't take a great deal of training to perform this upgrade.) Needless to say, after I came in and ate lunch (yo, I gotta eat) I went up to business office and picked up where she left off. I was able to finish 15 more today which leaves only 3 people who's computers I couldn't get to since they leave early, and one person who is on leave indefinitely. So... when I get back to the computer room, I find out that lookie here, the schedule's been changed. Now they want me to come in wednesday instead of saturday and work another ten hours ... ohh... and I'm told "come in as early as u can." You see, they need me to be at work tomorrow because I'm the only person who can do these upgrades, and the medical records department has yet to be done. left right, left right left, ...marching all over my cock. Here's an idea, how about instead of giving your good employees the shaft (or stepping on their shafts), you make the rest of them work their fair share.

Then, I let Melissa know that I was going to have to work tomorrow and, well, she wasn't happy about the change in my schedule. Better just leave it at that.

Finally, my Mom calls me up at work. "What are you planning on doing when you get off work at 8:30?" "First of all, I don't get off at 8:30. I get off at 10:30." "Well what are you doing after work?" "I'm going to sleep. I have to work in the morning." Of course then she wants to know why, so I tell her the story about my cock getting stepped on and finally she gets to the reason she called... "Can you help Dad move the china cabinet away from the wall when you get home?" It just needs to be moved away from the wall a foot and a half or so." So I said, "Is he going to be up at 10:30?" "Well, if he isn't, you can wake him up." Now first of all, I can do that shit by myself ...and so could he... but some people just need help ... with everything. Hell, last month, I had to "help" him change the oil in his truck. Yea... "help" my ass...I changed the fucking oil in his truck is what I did. All so he wouldn't have to do it himself ... or god forbid pay somebody to do it. Hell, I don't even change my own god damn oil. Crunch goes the cock.

Bottom line, apparently my cock looks like a doormat.

Here we are again boys and girls. It's been about a month since my last post here. Time flys, what can I say.

Melissa mentioned to me the other day, after spending some time reading up on my old posts, that I don't post the same way I used to. Apparently, I used to have more to say about how I feel about things whereas now I just tell what happens. I'm not saying it isn't true, in fact, if I had to give a reason why things have become the way they have I'd have to say it's because I've learned my lesson. It's like this: I care about Melissa. I really do. At the same time I know that the way I feel about things conflicts with her ideas and her feelings... and over time I've learned to not go there if at all possible. Is that wrong? Granted, it would be great if I felt about everything exactly the way she does. That's just not the case. So I'm left with two options. I can continue to be myself and speak my mind as I did before we met, or I can do my best not to offend her by keeping my thoughts and feelings to myself. Part of me says "If you can't be yourself and speak your mind, what's the point? That's part of what she liked about you, right?" and the other part says "Just play it safe, keep the peace, and do your best to make her happy." I honestly don't know what to do.

On a day to day basis, I know she's not as happy as when we first started going out. I think I've said it before, but I only want the person I'm with to be happy. If she's not happy, and I think I'm the cause, that's only going to push me away. I just don't want anyone to be unhappy because of me. We both know our time together is running out, but if knowing that is going to make anyone miserable now, I don't see any point in dragging things out. I truly think I'm going to be a better person for having been with her, and even though it isn't realistic for us to take things to the next level, I want to enjoy the time we have left. Melissa has been a very important part of my life for a long time and I know I'm going to miss her someday. I want nothing more than for us to always be friends. I would feel guilty to no end if I ever did anything to make her hate me. I really want us both to be able to enjoy the time we have left. When the time comes, I'd like to think there will be no regrets, no blame, and no hurt feelings. No matter what the future holds, these were my intentions.

Other matters to follow...

Getting my body kit on my car has been one insane escapade after another. Then, when it was complete, I cracked my front bumper, so the bumper itself is back in the shop and I'm riding around with 3/4 of a kit and a stock front bumper. It's going to be the shit when it's done, but I don't think they guy who is doing my repair work (same guy who did the paint/install) is all that gung-ho to get it repaired. He's put me off for over a week now, but I don't really have a leg to stand on since he said he would do it for free even after I offered to compensate him for the repair. Afterall, I'm told that's the miracle of fiberglass, infinitely repairable. *shrugs*

The place where Justin lives now is a duplex, and the people who live on the other side of the house run with a lot of the mobilesucks crowd. Insanely enough, Tommy lives there. Tommy... from my year in college... he was good friends with Susan. Tommy's always been kinda weird, and you know what, he's still pretty weird. There's another guy there named Mike who is into cool stuff like producing TV shows on Jag TV (University of South Alabama TV). I was told he does a skit comedy show which is right up my alley, I just haven't had a chance to get to know the guy, and vice versa really. I don't know... it's just one of those avenues I'd like to explore.

I don't know if I posted anything about this, but I've become active in a group formerly know as the Mobile atheists. Now known as the Mobile Area Freethought Association or MAFTA for short. Our first order of business under the new name was to make the university aware that their practice of admitting x-ians w/ a church bulletin into sunday baseball games for free was a violation of the seperation of church and state as well as just plain prejudicial. The story managed to make the front page of the student run newspaper, which i thought was pretty damn cool. You can read more about the story as well as who we are, when and where we meet, etc. here. Also feel free to contact me for any additional info.