I was issued a speeding ticket this morning. Just what I needed to start my day off right. Of course I was late for work too. Getting pulled over will do that. 62 in a 40. $130 fine. Ya know, there's been plenty of times when I could have afforded a $130 fine but I never got pulled over. Of course not, they pull you over as if they know they're squeezing the last drop of money out of you. I was also ticketed for no proof of insurance. Actually, I had one of those stupid proof of insurance cards, but it was expired. The whole proof of insurance card thing is just a big pile of bullshit anyway. It's like every 6 months I'm supposed to remember to swap the card out for a new one? Anyway, as soon as I get proof that my insurance is, in fact, current I can go show it off and there won't be a fine or anything. It's just a big fucking inconvenience all the way around. I got almost two months to come up with the $130, which shouldn't be too tough. It's just not what I needed right now.
I know everyone gets tired of reading me talk about Melissa, but I can't help it. Yesterday she told me that Sam doesn't call her anymore because of Andy. Andy, just like me was an ex who dumped her and now wants her back. Then his best friend Sam started hitting on her and going out with her behind his back so now Andy doesn't want anything to do with Melissa even though she didn't do anything wrong. At first, it sounded like a simple case of bros b4 hoes. But really it's like this... Andy wants her back, but in my opinion doesn't deserve her because he doesn't love her. Furthermore he's an idiot for not realizing that it was Sam who picked her up not the other way around. Then he's been talking to (cock blocking) Sam and making Sam feel guilty so he won't want to hang out with Melissa any more. What I'd like to know is why Sam picked her up in the first place if he knew Andy was trying to get her back. I mean, surely Andy let Sam know what was up. And obviously Sam and Melissa both knew it because they kept it from Andy. I know if it were me and Justin, and he were to introduce me to some girl that he was trying to hook back up with, I'd stay as far away from that as possible unless she came after me. I do agree that the whole situation sucks for Melissa, and that's why she told me about it.
If you know me, then you know the whole conversation hurt like someone sticking their finger in a bullet wound, but I tried to hide it as best I could. I really want her to know that she can talk to me about anything. Unfortunately, I wasn't really able to give her any helpful advice. All I could tell her is that maybe one day she will find someone who isn't an idiot.
As for me, I don't know what I'm doing, as usual. Maybe I am being played, but I just have to keep being the person I am: straight forward and honest as always. If that doesn't pay off, I can't blame myself. I won't keep beating myself up for my past mistakes. It's in the past. I won't make the same mistakes again. I'm not going to beg Melissa to give me another chance any more. Though I honestly believe we are still meant to be together, if she doesn't realize that, then it's her loss as much as it is mine. I'm done pleading my case. I'll continue to give her my love and devotion, but that's all I can do.
I know everyone gets tired of reading me talk about Melissa, but I can't help it. Yesterday she told me that Sam doesn't call her anymore because of Andy. Andy, just like me was an ex who dumped her and now wants her back. Then his best friend Sam started hitting on her and going out with her behind his back so now Andy doesn't want anything to do with Melissa even though she didn't do anything wrong. At first, it sounded like a simple case of bros b4 hoes. But really it's like this... Andy wants her back, but in my opinion doesn't deserve her because he doesn't love her. Furthermore he's an idiot for not realizing that it was Sam who picked her up not the other way around. Then he's been talking to (cock blocking) Sam and making Sam feel guilty so he won't want to hang out with Melissa any more. What I'd like to know is why Sam picked her up in the first place if he knew Andy was trying to get her back. I mean, surely Andy let Sam know what was up. And obviously Sam and Melissa both knew it because they kept it from Andy. I know if it were me and Justin, and he were to introduce me to some girl that he was trying to hook back up with, I'd stay as far away from that as possible unless she came after me. I do agree that the whole situation sucks for Melissa, and that's why she told me about it.
If you know me, then you know the whole conversation hurt like someone sticking their finger in a bullet wound, but I tried to hide it as best I could. I really want her to know that she can talk to me about anything. Unfortunately, I wasn't really able to give her any helpful advice. All I could tell her is that maybe one day she will find someone who isn't an idiot.
As for me, I don't know what I'm doing, as usual. Maybe I am being played, but I just have to keep being the person I am: straight forward and honest as always. If that doesn't pay off, I can't blame myself. I won't keep beating myself up for my past mistakes. It's in the past. I won't make the same mistakes again. I'm not going to beg Melissa to give me another chance any more. Though I honestly believe we are still meant to be together, if she doesn't realize that, then it's her loss as much as it is mine. I'm done pleading my case. I'll continue to give her my love and devotion, but that's all I can do.
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