Well, it's sunday once again. You know what that means? It means another boring day at work, and another post to my blog. They've changed things up a bit here at blogger.com where I upload my posts, so I'm hoping I won't run into any problems.

Friday -

So, I had planned a couple of weeks ago to go to a concert (actually, just a band playing at a little night club) in Ocean Springs with Justin, Sterling, Brian, and some other people this past friday. I asked Melissa if she'd like to go and she said yea, but then I got pissed at Justin and really didn't want to go. So, on friday I decided to go to Biloxi to see Eric. Me, Him, and Sandy went out to eat at the Italian Buffet at the Grand Casino. Afterwards, we were feeding money to the slot machines when Sterling calls me and asks if I want to go to the concert. At this point, I'm like 15mins from Ocean Springs, so I said what the hell and I met them all later in Ocean Springs then went to the concert. So I'm at the concert and Melissa calls and... well ... I'm sure u can guess the rest. I mean, I REALLY did not intend to go. But what made it look even worse is that I managed to get pictures of the show. I had my camera with me because I planned to get pics of Eric's kids... and it just so happened that Justin asked while we were at the show "Do you have your camera with you?" and I said "uhh... actually, I do." Anyway, I'll upload the pics as soon as I get a chance. BTW, the band was called Dead Boy and The Elephant Man... featuring the lead singer formerly of Acid Bath.

Saturday night -

So, saturday night, the guys were having a party at Brian's parents' house, and they finally got a drummer, so there was a live band and everything so I invited Melissa. Not that I REALLY wanted to go, but I had to try to do something to make up for Friday night. The guys actually sounded pretty good, though Brian doesn't have an amp to use, so there were no vocals. The set up: Justin plays guitar, Sterling is on Bass, Tony on Drums, and Brian is the would-be vocalist. I, myself, have no musical talent... though Justin likes to call me 'the manager.' Like I know how or have time to manage anything. I think Melissa was maybe just a little impressed by the band. I must admit, they sounded pretty good. She even asked if they could play sometime at her house when her parents are out of town. I haven't asked Justin yet, but I'm thinking this might not work out to great. Not that I wouldn't want them to play at her house, it's just that they play VERY loud. The last thing I'd want is to have the police called to my girlfriend's house while her parents are out of town. She said she'd have to see how loud it would be, and if nothing else, they could turn it down. Now I find myself thinking, how would I be able to tell Justin and Sterling to turn it down? Do they even know the meaning of those words? I guess we'll see. Later at the party, it was getting kinda late, and I could tell something was bothering Melissa, so I decided we would go ahead and leave so we went back to my house. Once we got there, I could tell something was still bothering her, so I asked her what was wrong and she told me. Apparently, Rachel (Justin's sister) was paying me too much attention. Now I didn't think anything of this until Melissa brought it up, but there were several times when rachel asked me for stuff. One time she asked me to 'babysit' her cigarette while she went inside to get something, then once she asked to borrow my lighter to dry off her cigarette (she had been standing in the sprinkler - don't ask)... then later she asked to have a sip of my drink. There may have been other times, but I don't remember. Then I took a picture of her (Rachel; actually Rachel and Missy) and I guess that came off the wrong way... I was taking pictures of everyone at the party (which I will post later), and I just happened to realize Rachel and Missy (one of Justin's ex's, now just friends) standing there and decided to get a picture of both of them. So maybe it was a bad idea, and if i had picked up on the Rachel thing I certainly wouldn't have taken the picture. Then when I got to thinking about it, it really made me laugh because that's Rachel, Justin's sister, Rachel. I've known her for so long, I mean, roughly as long as I've known Justin, and there's never been anything between us. She even has a b/f right now. It's not that I thought it was funny that Melissa was getting jealous... I actually found that to be very flattering. I find it amazing every time I'm with her that she actually likes me and that she sees something in me that makes me someone worth being with... and so it's even more amazing to me that she thinks some other girl would want to be with me too. Maybe that just shows how low my self-esteem is, but that's really how I feel.

The Civic -

So, in other news, Melissa actually managed to get some money back from her Insurance company, and she's going to try to get a new 2003 civic. She's not sure if she can afford it just yet, but wish her luck, everyone. :-)

Welcome earthlings. *ahem* yea, anyway ... Melissa had some bad luck this past Friday. She had an accident. Thankfully, she didn't get hurt or anything... but we're pretty sure her car is totaled. It's not that the damage was that bad. I mean, I say it wasn't that bad though I didn't really get a close look. Both of her airbags deployed, though, so with a car as old as hers is, well ... yea. She had a 97 or a 98 Pontiac Sunfire, I can't remember exactly what year. She liked the car a lot, and was really upset about the accident since she had never had an accident before... or been given a ticket, or been pulled over or anything. Of course, I don't blame her for being upset. I was absolutely hysterical when I wrecked my Corolla less than a month after I got it... and I didn't even really like that car, though it was new at the time. What happened, the best I can figure out, is that she was coming up behind someone at a traffic light a little too fast and tried to stop, and it either was raining or had been raining and she skidded or hydroplaned and hit the car in front of her. Shit Happens, ya know. Having had my share of accidents, I know what it's like. So on my way home (actually to her house) from work that night, I stopped and bought some flowers and a card... just to show I care and truthfully how happy I am she wasn't hurt. Of course she liked them and everything, and that made me feel really good. Anyway, (insert final words (ex.: "ciao," "later," "L8r," "so long," "catch ya on the flip side," "c-ya," "bye," "Aloha") here. (Aloha? wtf?))

Welcome to another wonderful episode of the DeathOnABun show.

Melissa and the game-

I went with Melissa yesterday to a little league baseball game. (0_o) I still don't know why. I mean, one of the kids playing goes to the daycare she works at, and for some reason she wanted to see him play... so she asked me to go... and so I went. Sure, it was boring... and I didn't know any of the kids and couldn't really take any interest in the game. Sports in general, as everyone who knows me knows, are not something I enjoy participating in or watching. Not that little league baseball could really be considered a sport. It's more accurately described as an imitation of a sport. Back to the point, though... i didn't go because I wanted to. I went because she wanted me to. Although I couldn't force myself to have a good time I still had to pat myself on the back for making myself go. It's rare that I do anything i don't want to do in the interest of pleasing someone else. Just ask my parents. All in all, it wasn't too bad of an experience. After the game, I took us out to eat at Ruby Tuesday's ... a REAL restaraunt for a change. Also, I think Melissa likes to eat there cause she's told me the last couple of times she ate there. I can take a hint. After that I took her home and I stayed with her a little while. When we got there her brother was in the living room so we ended up laying down on the back porch and staring at the clouds and the stars for a few minutes. Lying down and staring at the sky is something I think most people don't do enough. I find it to be rather peaceful. After that we watched TV and cuddled on the Sofa until it was time for me to leave. All in all, it was a good day.

PC Gaming returns -

I got my graphics card Wednesday and put it in. So far it's fucking great. I ran 3DMark 03 (a video card benchmarking application) and well... the numbers were shitty, but I blame it mostly on my processor. All the games I've played look and play great. I've gotten all the games installed except for Enter the Matrix. There was an error on the first CD during install, so I'm currently in the process of downloading them all again and burning them myself. I haven't had time to actually start on any of the games... and honestly, I'm unsure of which one I want to play first. I started the first level of Unreal 2 and got my ass kicked. I played GTA: Vice City for a little while just to check it out and it ran great. I re-installed Need for Speed Hot Pursuit 2 which I had loaded before and quickly determined my old graphics card wasn't up to the task. Now it looks and runs great. Oh, and I haven't loaded blackhawk down yet, but I will eventually. I'm thinking of loading out American McGee's Alice again and maybe playing that a little also. I went on ebay and bought a Playstation 2 controller to USB adapter. Game pads made for the PC traditionally suck, so this way I can use the PS2 controller on my PC games. Eric actually made his own adapter for this purpose, him being the electrical genious he is. He found a diagram and drivers online, and made an adapter out of parts from radio shack... though his adapter hooked up to the parallel (printer) port instead of USB.

Pissed at Justin -

In other news, I got really pissed off at Justin a couple of days ago. I was in my car with Melissa, taking her home as i recall, and I opened my CD case to find a CD. To my suprise, I happen to note that 2 CDs were missing. I instantly thought back to two days before when I had been at Kim & Sterling's house (where Justin is currently living) and had taken my CD case inside with me. I had come over there to bring my Live CDs, which I ended up forgetting I had made an MP3 disc for and ... blah blah blah. Anyway, I left my case there for like 5 mins while I ran home and got the CDs I had forgotten. So, apparently, it was during this time that Justin managed to relieve me of two of my CDs. Now, it might have been fine if he had asked me to burn him some copies, or maybe even borrow the discs... but no... he didn't say shit to me. So I went over there after I dropped Melissa off and I got my CDs.. one of which was in the CD player and the other was laying out on the table not in a case or anything. Like most people, I don't like to buy CDs, but when I do, I like take care of them; I don't leave them sitting out waiting to get scratched. So, on my way out, I woke Justin (it was 5am) just long enough to tell him how much I fuckin hate it when people take my shit without asking. I mean, it's not the first time he's done that sort of thing, and far too many times I've let it slide. Even when he's taken some of the movies I've burned, some of which I never got back. The other thing that is really starting to piss me off with him is the fact that he owes me $450 and hasn't made the first fucking effort to pay me back. He's got a job, but has no bills, and what does he do with his money? Lately the majority has been going to hundreds of dollars worth of musical equipment ... namely 2 guitars, an amp, and a speaker cabinet. How fucked up is that? He can't pay me back, but he can buy all this other bullshit he wants. I swear if I have to write off what he owes me, I'm writing him off too. I'm sick of fuckin waiting around for him to pay me... it's been a year.

This concludes tonight's episode. Please tune in next time.

Here I am once again cats & kittens. I've been doing pretty good lately... been spending a lot of time with Melissa... really happy about that. I'm pretty sure this is the longest a relationship has ever lasted me. That's not really saying much considering i've only had a couple previous to this, but it's enough to make me happy. We went to her friend Nikki's house in Auburn and stayed the night with her and her boyfriend, Josh, last weekend. That was preet cool, I had never been to Auburn ... and I didn't really know what to expect. It's not a very big town... at least from what I saw. It's a typical college town I guess. We didn't do a whole lot while we were there... we went into downtown auburn and did a little shopping then made our way out to the mall, and caught a movie later on. Nothing we couldn't have done here in Mobile, but the change of setting was kinda cool. I bought a Ducti wallet while I was there. It's a wallet that's basically made out of duct tape... or Super Duct Tape as they call it. Apparently it's better than regular duct tape cause it's stronger, and doesn't ooze glue from the seams. It seems to be holding up well, and everyone who's seen it has complimented me on it.

I also broke down and ordered me a new graphics card last week... which should be getting here Wednesday according to the UPS tracking site. I'm so stoked. And seriously, it takes a real nerd to get stoked over a new graphics card. I ordered a ATI Radeon 9500 Pro from ocsystem.com ... and not just any ATI Radeon 9500 Pro .... I got one of the ones they already overclocked. w00t! If you're into that sort of thing, though I doubt many of you are, you can check it out here. Yea, I broke down and put it on my paypal credit card.... which, I never really intended to have, but I applied online just to see if they would accept me and the next thing I know they send me a credit card with a $1000 credit line so I thought, "what the hell...". Anyway, Eric's burning a bunch of games for me : Enter the Matrix, GTA : Vice City, Unreal II, and Blackhawk Down ... the last of which I didn't even know was a damn video game. Fuck if i know when I'm actually going to get time to play them, but at least I'll have them. I would have downloaded them all myself and burned them, but I just couldn't see the point when he already had 'em all. I'm a little bummed that I couldn't get the 'ATI Radeon 9700 Pro All-in-wonder' (long fuckin name, ain't it?) that I wanted, but hell, I guess I'll just add in a TV tuner card later on and make due. I mean, technically I could have gotten it instead... since I do have the $1000 credit line... but I'm a tight-wad even when it comes to credit so I had to step down about $100. I'm glad I did though, because I checked my phone bill for last month... a bill that should have been $40 was $105 so that kinda sucks a big one. I've been kinda stupid, using my cell phone to talk to Melissa when I really should have been using a land line. Oh well... hopefully next month's won't be so bad. Anyway... I guess that wraps things up for now. ciao.

Well, well, here I am yet again. Time to update the ole' blog. Lemesee... Everthing is cool with me and Melissa. We kinda had to have a talk about a few things, but we see eye to eye now. She made me realize I was wrong to have posted that journal entry on 5/20 without at least talking to her first. It really made her look bad, though that wasn't my intention. The intention was, just as many of my entries are, to get things off my chest. From now on, though, I'm gonna go to her first whenever there are things in our relationship that are bothering me. Melissa and I went to Big Daddy's friday night. It was fight night, so we got to watch some pretty funny amateur boxing. After the boxing she tried to get me to dance, but I can't dance. Sad but true. I had a few drinks though, so over all I had a good time. Believe it or not, I actually enjoyed just watching her dance for the little while she did dance.

Saturday, me and Justin got bored and decided to go buy some t-shirts and fabric paint from wal-mart and make some t-shirts. I made one that says "WAS THAT A FAT JOKE?" ...kinda funny. Justin made one that said "Go Drink some Bleach!" and another that said "It's your hell. You burn in it!" ...eh... well what can u expect from him. I have another t-shirt but not sure what I'm going to put on it. I think I'm going to wait and see how well the fabric paint holds up after it's been washed. If it looks good I may put something on the other shirt and put my web address (www.DeathOnABun.com) on the back of both of them.

On the book scene, I finished book 3 of War of the Souls last week. I highly recommend. Now I've gone back and am reading Dragons of a New Age so I can catch up on all the 5th age stuff I missed. Also, lately I've been feeling like I need more content here on the site, not to mention needing to reorganize the links page and add more links. I'm thinking of making it a table format. Also I've noticed a lot of my images on the picture pages don't line up right if you don't maximize the window. I gotta find a way to fix that. I'm also wanting to add a rant about reality TV shows, and maybe even doing the one on racism that I haven't touched since I decided I would do it. Perhaps changing 'my ideas' to 'rants' would be a good idea too. I think that would be more suitable. I should probably link my art page to my page on deviantart, too. Damn all these ideas! I just need time to do them. Anyway, if you've got any ideas for more content (or fixes) here on the site, let me know, and I'll add it to my list of shit to do and maybe, just maybe, I'll get around to it within the next few weeks. Well, I'm out for now... L8r...