This post is brought to you thanks to my having to come into work four hours early. It's wonderful. There's nothing to do, but I'll end up with 40 hrs for the week so I'm not complaining. What isn't wonderful is the new POS surfcontrol software they've installed here at work. You can imagine my surprise when I found out my site ... this site you are viewing right now, is now unaccessable from where I work. Since I came into work so early today, I decided to question Kevin about it. He is the head Network Analyst. He has no idea how the software works. I'm thinking it has something to do with the "warning" index page. He suggested it could be the domain name, but I've tested that by visiting other sites with "death" (assuming "onabun" is not the offensive portion) in the domain, as well as trying to access my site by typing in the IP address rather than the domain. I guess I'll have to edit the page to see if it makes any difference. I just hope it hasn't blocked it to the point that a change won't make any difference... such as adding it to a constantly growing list of blocked sites. How funny is it that by designing an entrance to try to avoid offending people, I end up offending some security software that in turn denies me access to my own site. It's a bit too humorous to even be mad about it. As Kevin noted, it blocks my site, but yet a site like this loads just fine. Can you believe the hospital actually spent $35,000 on this system? ROFL! How about they give me $35,000 and I'll go around spying on people who have internet access and smack them in the head when they surf some place they shouldn't. It would be equally (if not more) affective, and I'm certainly up for the task.

It looks like the holidays have passed once again. I have to say it was pretty uneventful... though new years was pretty good. I treated everyone over at Kim's house to some liquor, and I picked up a six pack of Sky blues for myself. I'm just not real big into drinking. Everyone got buzzed, some even good and drunk, and many I'm sure got laid that night. I, myself, drove home alone well after buzz had began to fade, and feel asleep feeling sorry for myself. Also that night, I apparently came up with the great idea to quit smoking cigarettes. It's kind of funny considering I've been smoking for about four years, gotten nearly a pack a day habit at times, my parents still don't know, and I'm already trying to quit. Trust me, I've taken plenty of heat from my friends for being such a wuss and not going ahead and telling my parents I smoke. It's just that my mother pictures me as the perfect child that would never do wrong, and never lie to protect myself, even though I have been known to lie to protect others. I know if I were to tell her or if she found out, the first words out of her mouth would be : "Well, what else have ya not been telling me? What else have you been smoking?" ...and I don't even want to go down that road. Don't get me wrong, I'm not quitting because I'm afraid of my parents, or that i feel guilty. I'm quitting because I made a promise to myself a long time ago that I only had three goals that if i achieved them, then I would be a happier person. The first was, sad to say, losing my virginity. Guys, you can understand where I'm coming from. That was something I didn't think would ever happen. I mean, seriously, I am one fucked up individual, both mentally and physically. Or at least, that's how I feel about myself. Nevertheless, it happened. Now i'm down to two goals that don't really look so tough anymore... quit smoking, and get in shape. I figure if I can quit smoking between now and summer, then maybe I'll be ready to get in shape over the summer. That's probably a bit over-optimistic... which is rare for me, but even if it takes two or three years, it will still be worth it. I guess what i really need to remember though, is that I owe it all to Wade. I really hate myself everytime I think about what happened because in my eyes, she gave me so much and I didn't really give her anything. Anyway... no need to open old wounds. Speaking of old wounds, I've been talking to Susan every once in a while at work when she's on. She's usually the one that IMs me, but I always end up asking all the questions "how are you doing?" "what have you been doing?" "how was new year's?" ... just to keep the conversation going and fend off the akward silence. Some people just aren't worth a shit to talk to online ... and some people aren't worth a shit to talk to offline now that I think about it. Makes me wonder which I would be to someone.

Another thing I wanted to mention is that I'll be adding a new page to the site in the coming weeks. I stole the idea from Alice (http://www.unicorn-cat.com), but it's ok because she authorized me to steal it. We've pretty much agreed to link to one another's pages. The idea is this : taking screen captures from ChatXtra chat and making a page out of them. I know what you're thinking, doesn't sound too interesting.... but if you knew some of the funny shit I've seen scroll by on that screen, you'd know where I'm coming from... and you'll see just as soon as I collect enough screen shots. Trust me, that shouldn't take very long. Well,anyway, that should give you something to look forward to.Have a good one. L8r.