Ok ... time to post something to the journal ... First off, I'd like to thank everyone for not making too much fun of me for my last journal entry. I guess that's what I get for writing things spontaneously. Anyway, what's going on ... Wade and I are still doing great. Well, aside from the fact that we're so far apart. ...so yea, it's hard living so far away... but I think we more than make up for the time we're apart when we're together. Hehehe... which reminds me ... I don't know when I'll get a chance to see her again. My work schedule is sooo fucked up... It's a jumble of days, evenings, and nights, with almost 40hrs a week for the next month or so. I dislike it for how it interferes with my life, and the things I could be doing, but I really need the money too. Job gets money, money pays for car payment, insurance, and gas, ....and since those all allow me to visit Wade.... it' must be ok, right? Right. Anyway, looks like the Bum will be moving out ... to Ocean Springs no less ... I mean, damn, what the hell is so great about Ocean Springs, MS? Well, it's a simple explanation. Josh has been living there with his sister and her b/f ... and since Justin is a friend of Josh, they offered him a place to dwell in exchange for paying Josh's portion of the rent since Josh is leaving for Michigan to live with his parents... at least until he turns 18... then I'm sure we'll be seeing the little pot head once again. Eric won't be too happy to hear Justin will be that much closer to him. At least he can rest assured that Justin doesn't know where he lives. Regardless, I still think I'll be seeing him often enough ... he plans to drive to Mobile everyday for work. Which I guess is good, because I'm forced to keep track of him to insure I get my money back, or his head on a stick, one. Speaking of which, he gets paid tomorrow and that cock smoker better "show me the money." Also my brother is thinking about going to Washington, DC for a month to do cable work there... It's supposed to pay really well and there's a $500 bonus just for going. The problem I see, though, is that with that bohemoth of a van he has, it's going to cost him most of that bonus just to cover the gas to get there. I don't know a lot, but I know this, if he thinks going to DC is a good idea, I'll be willing to bet it's not. It's just the way his mind works. Trust me. ...lol ... anywho, I think that just about covers everything for now. L8r on.

I went outside and picked a flower today... which is so not like me. Many of you will think this is strange, so if you don't think you can take it, i understand. Just don't read it.

Normally, I never go outside without a purpose... but there I was in my backyard. Mom has always had a thing for flowers. I never much appreciated them. They just seem so temporary. But I've been thinking about everything differently lately...and it's not too hard to figure out why. Anyway, I'm just standing there on the deck thinking about how great my life is lately, and i see flowers ... like I've never noticed them before... how long have they been there? how many years? ...and I never noticed them. Without even thinking I'm walking out in the yard, crouching down over these flowers... a sweet smell to them, but not overbearing. I have no clue what kind of flower it is. Like i said, never been much impressed by flowers; however, I decided I was going to pick one and put it on my desk... so I pick one and I was in the house 5 seconds when it was snatched away from me. Grubby little claws snatching at it ... "where'd you get it?" ... "in the backyard, give it back" ..."where?" ..."give it back." ..."I just want to smell it. where?" ... "in the back yard, give it back!" ..."but where?" ... "FINE! KEEP IT!" ... I went out and got another flower.... and I put it on my desk. It's just not the same, though. It never ceases to amaze me how stupid people can fuck up a wet dream. Sure, maybe I'm just a whiny bastard babbling about a stupid flower, but damn, people are always doin shit like that to me. Little things like that, things that I normally never mention. I always just let 'em slide. I'm tired of it. Just because you can't see the flowers, is no excuse to take mine. ...with that said, I'm not going to let that shit get me down, because they can have all the flowers and it still won't equal what I do have... and she is more beautiful and more intoxicating than all of the flowers in the world... and they can't take that away from me. :-)