I just thought of something really funny. I have a girlfriend. It still seems unreal to me. After several visits to Bum fuck Andalusia to see Allison, things are just falling into place. For Christ's sake, she's the first girl I've ever kissed. It was great. She is great. I met her Mother yesterday. Her mother was kinda mad because Allison wasn't supposed to be allowed to meet anyone off of the internet. She was all like, "You don't know who the people are on the internet. For all I know, you could be an axe murderer." How old are you? Where do you work? Do you go to school? The woman even asked to see my Driver's License! I felt like I was being interrogated. So anyway, I think she was satisfied that I wasn't an axe murderer... though being the smart ass I am, I couldn't help but tell her, "No, I'm not an axe murderer... the axe is not my weapon of choice." But anyway, Allison showed me their horses. They have three, maybe four horses and they're really beautiful animals. I wouldn't have much use for them... but they are definitely beautiful. They also have some cows and a big docile dog and of course cute little kittens like the ones we have (but ours are more precious.) They really have a nice place, albeit out in the middle of nowhere... down a dirt road. Her house is unreal... on the outside, it looks pretty bad... old, dried out, not quite rotting, gray boards on part of it and on other parts of it has equally old, uhm... i guess you would call it particle board, but it's not really, it's made up of larger chunks of wood. Anyway, you get the idea, the outside looks bad. BUT, then you go inside. Inside the place is awesome... unbelievably high ceilings, nice hardwood floors. Huge bedrooms. Allison tells me they've been remodeling for years. Well, lemme tell ya, they did a great job. Her bedroom makes my room look like a walk in closet. The place was a little messy, but I'm used to that so it wasn't a big deal. If you've been keeping up, you won't be surprised that I'm not going to say I love her. I care about her. She means everything to me. Love is just such a strong word, and if used improperly, it can hurt.... and the last thing I want to do is be careless and hurt her. The only problem I foresee is the distance. It is going to kill me to drive up there so often. And then there's the fact that she's only 16 and girls that age can change their minds on a moment's notice, and go out with someone else. I don't know how I'm gonna deal with that. I don't want to loose her, but with my luck I know I will... and I'll probably deserve it. I don't have to think about that right now though... all I can do is enjoy the time I have with her. One thing is for sure. She'll be in my memories forever... if for nothing more than being the first girl I ever kissed.... and the first girl that ever thought I was cute. If Susan were a candle, Allison would be a star. Wow... that was so cheesy, I think I'M gonna puke. Anyway, more updates to come.

Ok, since I've gotten out of school, I've had quite a bit of free time to meet people on the internet. Well, to make a long story short, there's a girl I've been talking to for a long long time who lives in Andalusia. That's about 2 and a half hours from here. Well, I never really thought about her in a romantic sort of way. I guess my mind was stuck on Susan. I mean, I think the first time I ever talked to Allison, that's her name, I think she told me she was like 14... so I wasn't really thinking 'romantic possibility.' But now, since she just turned 16 and she had been begging me to come see her, I went to go see her day before yesterday. I've met girls off the internet before... and more times than not, It's turned out pretty bad. I don't want to get all mushy, but I feel really good about this one. I had a really great time with her. She's not as attractive as Susan, but she does something Susan never did. Allison makes me feel good about myself. She thinks I'm cute... and she is too. I mean, if you were to pick a person out of a crowd for me, she would be it. She doesn't realize how beautiful she is. She thinks I'm full of shit every time I say that. I told I her it might be that I see things other people don't. What gives her the right to be insecure then get pissed off when I express my insecurities. Well, needless to say, she's all I've been able to think about since I met her. I want Eric to meet her. Not that I need his approval, but he'll let me know if there's something there, or if I'm just dreaming. It will be difficult though, Andalusia is about 3 and a half hours from Ocean Springs where Eric lives. Anyway, I think I'm going to be going back to Andalusia to see her next week... and maybe even on a regular basis after that. Susan is a fuzzy memory, and I couldn't be happier.

A whole helluva lot has happened since my last update. Go figure. I haven't updated this thing since... well, October of last year, I guess. I'm still working at the Hospital (day-shift for the past few months), in fact, I'll be working there full time starting in June... I hope. It's a great job. I really like it. I just finished my second semester at school. I hate to say it, but this whole year of school was a waste of MY money. My grades weren't very good. I probably won't be going back in the fall either. If I do, it will only be a class or two, and at least then, if i'm full time at the hospital, i should get some tuition reimbursement. I got a new car on April 20th... I just happen to remember that date for some reason 4/20 ... lol... stoners new year. It's a 2001 Toyota Celica. Carbon Blue (the thing is damn near black). I love that car. I no longer have to live with the shame of driving that old Corolla. Heh, anyway, I'll try to get pics of it as soon as I buy a decent digital camera (some time this summer, trust me) So what's up with Susan? She started at south in January and dropped out before school was over. She never really wanted to go to south. She was pressured into it by her mother. We're still friends, but i have to confess, I'm not nearly as attracted to her as I used to be. Currently, she's going out with Gerald again... and it's hard to have feelings for someone who could be stupid enough to go back to someone who constantly stabs them in the back. I told her I no longer had those same feelings for her.... I didn't tell her why. I think she wants to go to Troy in the fall. Don't know -- don't care. Lately, I've been meeting girls on the internet. Some of them even say I'm cute! *EGO BOOSTER* Lie to my face, i don't care... just kidding, I really think some of them are sincere. Which reminds me, I really need to change the pic on the "ME" page. I hate that thing, and I actually have a decent one to replace it with. Oh, my guest book and counter are both gone too, what a pisser. The nasdaq nose dives and these pricks quit offering the free services. Cock Suckers. *sigh* Party on Wayne! Party On Garth!