Here's a little insight about why me and Laura have so much trouble getting along... this is an AOL IM Conversation (Blue text is Laura, red text is me):
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FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:21:12 PM): you are a huge asshole
CybrBlnt (11:21:29 PM): i know
CybrBlnt (11:21:51 PM): not sure how u know... but i know...
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:22:15 PM): gee i wonder how i could possibly know
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:22:19 PM): ass
CybrBlnt (11:22:44 PM): ok, I'm an ass... thar'a been established.
CybrBlnt (11:22:51 PM): that's*
CybrBlnt (11:23:09 PM): I'm not gonna argue with you.
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:23:19 PM): i never said you were
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:23:49 PM): and u can take the rude comments you said me in your website
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:23:55 PM): of course EVERYONE has flaws
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:24:06 PM): so dont mother fucking talk about my problems which arent even true
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:24:12 PM): on your fucking website
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:24:14 PM): dickhole
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FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:36:22 PM): its funny cuz i never said one thing bad about u to anyone i always told my friends and everyone how sweet and nice and cute u were not anything RUDE
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:36:48 PM): its funny cuz i never said one thing bad about u to anyone i always told my friends and everyone how sweet and nice and cute u were not anything RUDE
CybrBlnt (11:37:12 PM): it's not a matter of being rude or not being rude... it's being honest... I'd rather you fucking tell me the truth than fuckin lie to me or anyone else about me for the sake of being nice.
FeaRFactoRy0110 signed off at 11:37:27 PM.
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Yes, it is true... we all have flaws. I would venture to say I have more than most. I'm brutally honest, I'm ugly, I'm sarcastic, I'm insecure, I'm an *ASSHOLE*, I'm self-righteous... the list goes on... BUT unlike some people, I accept that. I accept all my flaws. Some people deny their flaws and pretend they don't exist. They would rather stick their head in the sand rather than confront themselves. Your flaws are nothing to get pissed about. I mean, shit, if you have a flaw, then everyone you know knows you have whatever particular flaw you have. It's not a fucking secret. I had the unfortunate experience of talking to some of Laura's friends... and they all agree with me on this.
Typically, If I have a flaw, and I don't know about it... then say something to me... please! So then, I can accept it... confront it, recognize it as either something i can change or something that is part of who i am and move on. But, NO, Laura would rather deny what is so blatantly obvious to everyone but her rather than say "Yes, I date guys for all the wrong reasons. That's who I am, and if you don't like it you can go fuck yourself." THAT IS ALL IT TAKES. How can it be OK for you to have this flaw and demonstrate it to everyone who meets you even at the same time you deny it, yet it's NOT OK for me to simply mention it? It's god-damned retarded, and someone has some growing up to do.
I'm not always sweet, I'm not always nice, and I'm never cute. So if you're running around LYING to people about what I'm like, why the fuck am I supposed to feel bad about being HONEST about you??? I could just go on and on... it all comes down to being yourself. For all of you reading this.... if you meet me, you're meeting the real me. Nothing more, nothing less. You may perceive my flaws as being larger or smaller than I feel about them... it varies. So is it wrong for me to expect the people I meet to be themselves? I have a flaw that makes me incapable of befriending people who can't, won't, or don't be themselves. I fuckin accept it.
Let me make all that crystal clear... Do I dislike her flaws? yes. | Do i dislike her having her flaws? No. | Do I dislike her for not accepting her flaws? YES. | Would I still be her friend? Yes... And that brings me to yet another of MY final flaws... I don't give up on friendships... and perhaps that's one I should evaluate and change. You tell me.
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FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:21:12 PM): you are a huge asshole
CybrBlnt (11:21:29 PM): i know
CybrBlnt (11:21:51 PM): not sure how u know... but i know...
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:22:15 PM): gee i wonder how i could possibly know
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:22:19 PM): ass
CybrBlnt (11:22:44 PM): ok, I'm an ass... thar'a been established.
CybrBlnt (11:22:51 PM): that's*
CybrBlnt (11:23:09 PM): I'm not gonna argue with you.
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:23:19 PM): i never said you were
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:23:49 PM): and u can take the rude comments you said me in your website
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:23:55 PM): of course EVERYONE has flaws
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:24:06 PM): so dont mother fucking talk about my problems which arent even true
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:24:12 PM): on your fucking website
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:24:14 PM): dickhole
FeaRFactoRy0110 signed off at 11:24:18 PM.
FeaRFactoRy0110 signed on at 11:25:26 PM.
FeaRFactoRy0110 signed off at 11:25:35 PM.
FeaRFactoRy0110 signed on at 11:34:21 PM.
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:36:22 PM): its funny cuz i never said one thing bad about u to anyone i always told my friends and everyone how sweet and nice and cute u were not anything RUDE
FeaRFactoRy0110 (11:36:48 PM): its funny cuz i never said one thing bad about u to anyone i always told my friends and everyone how sweet and nice and cute u were not anything RUDE
CybrBlnt (11:37:12 PM): it's not a matter of being rude or not being rude... it's being honest... I'd rather you fucking tell me the truth than fuckin lie to me or anyone else about me for the sake of being nice.
FeaRFactoRy0110 signed off at 11:37:27 PM.
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Yes, it is true... we all have flaws. I would venture to say I have more than most. I'm brutally honest, I'm ugly, I'm sarcastic, I'm insecure, I'm an *ASSHOLE*, I'm self-righteous... the list goes on... BUT unlike some people, I accept that. I accept all my flaws. Some people deny their flaws and pretend they don't exist. They would rather stick their head in the sand rather than confront themselves. Your flaws are nothing to get pissed about. I mean, shit, if you have a flaw, then everyone you know knows you have whatever particular flaw you have. It's not a fucking secret. I had the unfortunate experience of talking to some of Laura's friends... and they all agree with me on this.
Typically, If I have a flaw, and I don't know about it... then say something to me... please! So then, I can accept it... confront it, recognize it as either something i can change or something that is part of who i am and move on. But, NO, Laura would rather deny what is so blatantly obvious to everyone but her rather than say "Yes, I date guys for all the wrong reasons. That's who I am, and if you don't like it you can go fuck yourself." THAT IS ALL IT TAKES. How can it be OK for you to have this flaw and demonstrate it to everyone who meets you even at the same time you deny it, yet it's NOT OK for me to simply mention it? It's god-damned retarded, and someone has some growing up to do.
I'm not always sweet, I'm not always nice, and I'm never cute. So if you're running around LYING to people about what I'm like, why the fuck am I supposed to feel bad about being HONEST about you??? I could just go on and on... it all comes down to being yourself. For all of you reading this.... if you meet me, you're meeting the real me. Nothing more, nothing less. You may perceive my flaws as being larger or smaller than I feel about them... it varies. So is it wrong for me to expect the people I meet to be themselves? I have a flaw that makes me incapable of befriending people who can't, won't, or don't be themselves. I fuckin accept it.
Let me make all that crystal clear... Do I dislike her flaws? yes. | Do i dislike her having her flaws? No. | Do I dislike her for not accepting her flaws? YES. | Would I still be her friend? Yes... And that brings me to yet another of MY final flaws... I don't give up on friendships... and perhaps that's one I should evaluate and change. You tell me.
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