Why the hell didn't someone tell me I had the dates on the last two entries a year off? I was still putting 00 on them and no one said a thing >:( ... anyway... not a whole lot happening. Not sure if that's good or bad... but it's the truth. I went and played disc golf with Gene from work the other day. It was really fun. Me, Gene, and some of the other guys from work are going again Wednesday morning. Disc golf is like the cheap hippie version of that game the rich bastards play. If you've never heard of it, I suggest ya find out where the courses are in your area and try it one day. I also went to Eric's this past Saturday to see what the hell he was doing.. poor married bastard. The funniest thing that happened was I was telling him about Steph (aka Zeta20) and he was like "cool, man..." and then I got online and showed him her pic... and then his exact words were "give it up, man." That's the coolest thing about Eric and me. We're completely honest with each other. I mean, if someone else had said that, I probably would have been pissed.... but he was just being honest. Deep down even I know it's wishful thinking that I could ever be with a girl like that. Smart, sweet, beautiful, respectable... I mean someone like that deserves someone better than me. She's wonderful to talk to, and I know I could treat her right, but I don't know... maybe if I were to join a gym... start working out... loose a little (err a lot) of weight. The problem is this :

Okay, Imagine you're a typical guy but you've packed on a little more weight than most. Most girls won't even talk to you. Then you spill your heart on the internet, and a wonderful person reads it. Now this person thinks you are amazing. So, you want to meet this person, but this person doesn't really know what you look like. SO, how do you tell this person that you're not particularly attractive without making it sound like you're downing yourself... and without turning that person away ... ?????

I don't want to lead her on, and wait till we meet to break it on her. That seems like the wrong way to go. I also tried the direct approach, and I think that sounded like I was just degrading myself. I think I've probably blown my chances regardless. Any advice would still be appreciated, just in case ; ) Anyway, take it east everyone. Peace.