I just hit bottom. It doesn't get any worse than this. A string of events from Saturday to now has left me a mess of my former self. All the self esteem I've built up over the past few months down the drain. First the AC at my house went out. Then my niece destroyed the garage door. By the time we've got that fixed, I get a flat tire. Then yesterday, I wake up with an eye infection. Today my girlfriend tells me she's still in love with her Ex. I can't say I didn't see it coming. "Girls that age change their minds at a moment's notice..." At least I knew what I was talking about. She'll never find another man like me. That's something I can be sure of. I was never out to screw her over, but the more I think about it, the more I realize I'm just a sucker. Of course, I'm not out to screw girls over. I'm the increasingly rare kind of guy who is constantly GETTING screwed over. As soon as I open myself up to someone, they just rip me to shreds, and I have to pick up the pieces and go on. Then again, if there was no risk, would it really be worth it? I think I can manage. I guess all I can do now is throw myself back out there and see what happens. I'm not really afraid of getting screwed again. I guess that's what I'm here for. Girls get your ticket, step right up, rip my heart out, kick me in the nuts, stab me in the back.... just take your pick. You can't kill me.... I'm gonna get right back up and try again. That's just the kind of guy I am... for better or for worse. So, good night... tomorrow is another day... and hopefully a better one.